I am finding this hard to come to terms with.
When I was a teenager experiencing the full weight of my depression and anxiety for the first time I found a lot of solace in the music of Linkin Park. I was so lost in myself... so full of rage and fear and just all-encompassing sadness. I needed to scream. I needed outlets. I found this release in music. I found lyrics that mirrored what I was feeling, words I could use when I couldn't find any of my own. It was like having a friend who understood what I was feeling, even when I didn't know myself.
It might sound really stupid, but this sense of shared sadness saved my life. It was catharsis. It was a life preserver.
I am so incredibly sorry that he never found a way to face his own demons. I am sorry that he lost his battles. I am sorry that he left this world without knowing how much of an impact he had.
If you or anyone you know is struggling with depression or suicidal thoughts, please call the National Suicide Prevention hotline at 1-800-273-8255. Your life is so worth saving.